Hello, new friends!
Updated: May 10, 2022
I’ve tried to start a blog a few times over the course of my life. They were a little too self-conscious and onanistic (hey, look at that! My first double entendre!) But now, for the first time, I think I actually have something to write about. I am a single woman from the UK, and about 2 years ago I was diagnosed with Functional Neurological Disorder (FND), and it pretty much flipped my life upside down. I went from working as a ghostwriter in London at the same time as studying Philosophy at a good university and swimming through my wild and wonderful social life; to where I am now, episodically unable to move, speak or control my bladder, suffering from intense pain and debilitating fatigue.
But when you get diagnosed with a disability, you don’t magically lose your personality - or sex drive. In my heart, I’m still as wild as I’ve ever been, still as romantic, still as crazy, and definitely still as horny! So I thought I’d document my journey as I try to figure out for myself what dating, love, sex and romance can look like in this new, beautiful chapter of my life. Body image, orgasms, feminism and heartbreak are hard enough topics for any of us to grasp in our minds, but when, out of nowhere, it’s all coloured through the lens of something like FND, it’s really overwhelming. I’m hoping that writing this blog will help me work some of these things out, and maybe even reading it will give someone else a little reassurance too.
My only rules are to be completely honest, and always kind.
So, this is me, right now, sat in my PJs in bed with a large glass of wine and my puppy at my feet barking his head off because I haven't quite mastered training yet. I know, it's very Bridget Jones. Bridget Jones but with tinder...and bumble...and hinge and...personal independence payments. Wish me luck!